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January 31


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1. "i'm sorry
i don't want to
come over today."
the clock reads 4pm
and i roll over in my bed

2. "i forgot it was your
i'd forgotten my own

3. "i promise i won't
hurt myself."
the ER doesn't believe
it's an accident

4. you asked if i loved you.
i had to sneeze and it
never happened.
i think you took that
as a no.

5. we haven't had sex in a month.

6. we don't see
your friends.
we don't see
my friends.
i've forgotten
i even have any.

7. i never answered your text.
it asked if i was okay.

8. "i need you to open yourself
up for me," you said.
i stopped talking.

9. "what do you want from me,
apparently you didn't.

10. tonight i will sleep alone
but not really.
depression will hold me
and stroke my hair,
telling me everything
will never be
all right.
anymore without meaning it


my eating disorder has ruined every relationship i've been in

Feature time:dummy: So, here's another feature of the submissions that you lovely, wonderful people submitted while ruffling through your :+fav:s
Progress by jackgunski Fie! Fie! by Feanor-the-Dragon Painting Using the Fractal Gradient by PrimalExpression sounds of settling by OmnomnomSquirl L_I_S_T_S by Amanda-Graham Keeper of Dreams by PrussianPersephone moonsong by DrippingWords A Poem On Doors by Paperback-Astronaut Human by WeirdAndLovely Weary From Torment by ReiReiSerenade A Frozen Ballad, Part IV by Parsat Sky in a Bottle by Eevee1999 My Love, Stay by LadyLincoln Heartless by Honestly-Not on drowning, swimming, and the difference therein by MisfitableGrae
CherryBomb-LuvsCake 's poem "Death and Whiskey"
Static Wings by Entitaria 10 ways depression can say i don't love you by ohsostarryeyed There were always cupcakes by LadyBrookeCelebwen My Room of Unicorns by IrrevocableFate Hearts Wide Shut by Malintra-Shadowmoon Ignes Incantationem by flashingnumbers A Letter to a Struggling Artist by lizilicious
Rant About: Write What You Know by Celvas - a good work for writers, particular where inspiration is concerned
civil letter by morbidchic98 The Killers - Draft Two by KathrynODriscoll In Your Heart I Found My Home by Manouilidis :thumb3556441
Milestone!!!!!:woohoo: Lets celebrate!!!
This humble group has now reached 100 members!!!
And for this reason, allow me to present to everyone some of the amazing deviations submitted by you (yes you!):

Epiphany by creativemikey humiliation by thetaoofchaos
Angelica by HardlySleeping
My Undying Love by Gothicral
how to heal by KaitForest a casual i love you by touristEYES how to be a writer OR how to break your own heart. by HezClicks 10 ways depression can say i don't love you by ohsostarryeyed on drowning, swimming, and the difference therein by MisfitableGrae trust me, I'm a mortician by ivorysinkshore settlement by IyraEMM the shit i learned in high school by TheAdequateGatsby buzzed by 0hgravity
From the contributor, JWA2277
Our Hands by vagrantdreamer18 I Don't Know by kykyle1399 Hooked by WizardHowl10001 Dear Poetry, by DearPoetry Metaphors by IWantToBeEmmaPeel Call Me Anything... by Loling223 Forgotten Friend by forthefailure
From the co-founder Pauper-Circumstance
Endorsed By The Surgeon General. by Whyles Human Nature by jul320 My Love, Stay by LadyLincoln Ode To A Falcon by NathanielFlyingOwl I like you~ A Poem by lightbleueyes Static Wings by Entitaria :thumb41341…
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PrettyRad-PrettySad Apr 8, 2014  New member Hobbyist Artist
I love this.
You are so brave.  your writing is powerful and so emotive. I love your style and flow.  perfectly imperfect.
BellaBugia Feb 17, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
Holy wow, couldn't have put it better myself! Thank you
Dragonfly22 Feb 16, 2014  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
I can't imagine what it's like to feel like that, but I can only say, and I know it sounds cliché, that the person who's meant for you will care for you and stay by your side in the good and bad times. 
Ive been in love with your words
For what I would have to guess
Maybe five years?
I've never enjoyed any words as much
As yours.

Thank you so much.
I love you.
DamagedHomewrecker Feb 1, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
this is so painfully honest and heartbreaking and beautiful, oh so delicately wonderfully beautiful. 
JennyDalziel Feb 1, 2014  Student General Artist
Powerful, raw and beautiful :heart:
My various psyche issues seem to have destroyed pretty much any relationship I've ever had, including friends...
Please do toss me a note if you feel able/want to :tighthug:
hyalophagia Feb 1, 2014  Hobbyist Photographer
This breaks my heart. I've suffered from out of control bipolar disorder (depressive type) and eating issues for literally my entire life. I was blessed with the privilege of meeting and being with my current (and only, thanks to depression) partner and I know that every single day is a struggle for them because they never know what they're going to come home to or if I'll stop laughing and start sobbing. We've made it five years but every single day I worry that we won't make it forever because I'm a fucking mess. 

Good luck to you. <3
shep4life Feb 1, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
Wow that is powerful
God, that ending is heartbreaking, not to mention completely false. Things will be all right, and you will recover from your eating disorder.

By the way, I know sometimes you get upset due to the lack of comments here compared to what you used to get, but I make a point to get on deviantART to check a few people's poems specifically, yours included.

Take care of yourself, okay sweetheart? :hug:
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