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you're fifteen minutes away.  

that's a quarter of an hour, that's ten miles, that's space enough that i never have to see you again.

but still i feel my heart beating like a rabbit's foot against my rib.


i'm a girl still in denial
of being a woman with
breasts and hips and a womb.  
i'm a child with my heart and i will surrender it foolishly
to the first boy to give me roses and push them into my hair.  
i don't know how to love,
the way i don't know how how to stop.

but let me tell you this- it happens.
they both do.

i loved your fragile brown eyes like i'd never seen a warmer fire.  
i sank my bones like an anchor to your earthly vessel and called it home.  
i staggered home drunk every weekend we were together
by word only.

and i felt myself falling apart when i sighed
with sleepy repetition as we exhausted the same jokes as ever,
just a million miles different.  
my mind drifted but i loved you.  
the feathered finches in my chest were beaten
naked and red-skinned when they flew from my throat
to sing songs to another.  
but i loved you.  
and i pressed the spine of my book flatter and harder
into the table to read you my heart until the pages had fewer words,
then only words,
and finally,
faded letters.

i still have them.
the letters.
they're in my nightstand reminding me of
the love i was so blessed to find.
i'm sorry that i pushed you from boston to georgia,
but mostly from me to empty hands.
i pulled away the earth from beneath your feet.

at night i still kiss your soul.
at night i remember our virginal fumbles
and forays into love.

you are fifteen minutes away
and i hope you've found solace within your chest;
i promise to keep above water;
i wish you love and life-
i wish you the best.
not a letter, more like spoken words he can't yet hear
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reading your writing is an incredibly amazing thing to do.
i'm very pleased you think so :hug:
this. my darling, is everything for today. everything inside of me and inside of so many others.
tiajones Dec 30, 2012  Hobbyist Writer
"i don't know how to love,
the way i don't know how how to stop."
FromAshesToEden Dec 30, 2012  Hobbyist Photographer
god, i love this :heart:
FromAshesToEden Jan 26, 2013  Hobbyist Photographer
of course, you will always amaze me melissa ;w;
DamagedHomewrecker Dec 29, 2012  Hobbyist Writer
this is absolutely raw and beautiful. the finches imagery is beyond brilliant!
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