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December 27, 2012
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you're fifteen minutes away.  

that's a quarter of an hour, that's ten miles, that's space enough that i never have to see you again.

but still i feel my heart beating like a rabbit's foot against my rib.


i'm a girl still in denial
of being a woman with
breasts and hips and a womb.  
i'm a child with my heart and i will surrender it foolishly
to the first boy to give me roses and push them into my hair.  
i don't know how to love,
the way i don't know how how to stop.

but let me tell you this- it happens.
they both do.

i loved your fragile brown eyes like i'd never seen a warmer fire.  
i sank my bones like an anchor to your earthly vessel and called it home.  
i staggered home drunk every weekend we were together
by word only.

and i felt myself falling apart when i sighed
with sleepy repetition as we exhausted the same jokes as ever,
just a million miles different.  
my mind drifted but i loved you.  
the feathered finches in my chest were beaten
naked and red-skinned when they flew from my throat
to sing songs to another.  
but i loved you.  
and i pressed the spine of my book flatter and harder
into the table to read you my heart until the pages had fewer words,
then only words,
and finally,
faded letters.

i still have them.
the letters.
they're in my nightstand reminding me of
the love i was so blessed to find.
i'm sorry that i pushed you from boston to georgia,
but mostly from me to empty hands.
i pulled away the earth from beneath your feet.

at night i still kiss your soul.
at night i remember our virginal fumbles
and forays into love.

you are fifteen minutes away
and i hope you've found solace within your chest;
i promise to keep above water;
i wish you love and life-
i wish you the best.
not a letter, more like spoken words he can't yet hear
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pengirl100and2 Featured By Owner Jan 12, 2013   Writer
reading your writing is an incredibly amazing thing to do.
ohsostarryeyed Featured By Owner Jan 24, 2013
i'm very pleased you think so :hug:
michi-iyo Featured By Owner Jan 4, 2013
this. my darling, is everything for today. everything inside of me and inside of so many others.
ohsostarryeyed Featured By Owner Jan 13, 2013
tiajones Featured By Owner Dec 30, 2012  Hobbyist Writer
"i don't know how to love,
the way i don't know how how to stop."
ohsostarryeyed Featured By Owner Jan 6, 2013
FromAshesToEden Featured By Owner Dec 30, 2012  Hobbyist Photographer
god, i love this :heart:
ohsostarryeyed Featured By Owner Jan 24, 2013
thank you!
FromAshesToEden Featured By Owner Jan 26, 2013  Hobbyist Photographer
of course, you will always amaze me melissa ;w;
DamagedHomewrecker Featured By Owner Dec 29, 2012  Hobbyist Writer
this is absolutely raw and beautiful. the finches imagery is beyond brilliant!
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