i hate that i am
still waiting to hear you tell
me that you're sorry

i am so sorry
that you will not let me say
that i am sorry.

you have tripped
me with your words and
broke my heart.

in too many words,
i am seeing how i am
just everyone else.

you're important to
me in so many ways and
to you i'm worthless

if i got a dime
each time i misunderstood,
i would have so much
money but
that wouldn't make you
love me now.


you've lost your abil-
ity to reciprocate
any emotions
and replaced it
with sadistic acts
of malice.

i want nothing more
than to hate you, but my heart
still sits in your hands.

and even though i'm
fighting so hard to get it
back, i keep losing.

take my spine, take my
heart, i am just dying here,
please pay me no mind.

don't ask me if i'm
okay or still breathing when
you're the cause of it.

i can't bear
the thought of saying
i love you.
and saying
that i hate you just
won't fit right.

please don't listen to
me, i can't bear to listen
to you, just please- don't.

you've turned something that
could have been so easy in-
to a painful chore.

i still don't know why
i told you i loved you ster-
eotypically.

i want to know why
it was a necessity
for you to do it.

please, don't be-
lieve me when i say
i'm ok.

i won't believe you
when (if) you say it was all
just a big mistake.

i am so sorry-
misread your words, your heart; fell
down the stairs again.