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writers write whilst drunk
because every word
fumbled and smisspelled
comes out beautifully
because of the truth it holds

my ear bleeds from constant burns
and my stomach burns from constant bleeds
because beauty is never enough untouched, it seems,
the way anything i put in me is always too much.

i bled and evoked sympathy tonight.
i drank until i needed a body to stand me straight.
my organs writhed like heathens in moonlight ritual
and i let it shake.
i shook to be honest
but i was never honest enough
to admit from where the vibration came.
i shook with fear
and trepidation
and loneliness
and never, ever being adequate
or even happy
but i smiled and let everyone know
that i felt like myself,
and no one ever needed to know
that the only reason i felt so honest
was because i never feel like i can
stand on my own two feet unaided
or stop from trembling
or hold in outbursts of emotion
because if i do,
i know i'll break.
well i certainly wish this was better

also i was way drunker earlier but i'm still drunk and should be going to sleep but how the fuck do you sleep when you're drunk

i kind of feel shitty but i'll get over it

i just want to make love and be told i'm loved and just be held and feel okay but i don't and i want to cry instead but i can't

why am i so abnormal
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crashmypartyhard Featured By Owner Sep 9, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
I like this. This seems like it came from deep inside or somewhere personal,but it's good because no one really knows exactly what it means or might have meant except for you :)
ohsostarryeyed Featured By Owner Oct 7, 2012
just so many feelings yo haha thank you!
crashmypartyhard Featured By Owner Oct 7, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
D3adP03t Featured By Owner Sep 9, 2012  Hobbyist Writer
you write beautifully. I envy your skill and talent, yet I know that this must've been written from somewhere very hurt, and I cannot say I envy that, or attempt to understand where you are coming from.
Your poetry is beautiful, and that makes you beautiful. I hope these kind words from a stranger brighten your day just a little.
ohsostarryeyed Featured By Owner Oct 7, 2012
you are so lovely, thank you <3333
CrystalTearz55 Featured By Owner Sep 9, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
I can't even hold a pencil drunk, let alone write something as amazing as this, beautifully written (espicially while being drunk...)
ohsostarryeyed Featured By Owner Oct 7, 2012
haha i don't know if i can either, i just typed it!
Amontadillo Featured By Owner Sep 9, 2012  Student Writer
How to sleep when drunk? Drink more, feel sleepy.

Nice writing, somewhat charming, somewhat humorous.
ohsostarryeyed Featured By Owner Oct 7, 2012
i just get so wound up and notfeelingshitty when i drink haha i don't sleep very much when i drink. thank you!
Amontadillo Featured By Owner Oct 8, 2012  Student Writer
I don't get sleepy when I drink, either, really, but it's different for most others, so I thought I 'd say it :P :D
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