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i wanted to talk to you about happiness
but i don't think anyone in this room is qualified to talk about something
they probably don't know much about, and
how it spends most of its time
seeping out of your skin in whatever ways it can
because maybe your body is too toxic for it.

that's when you start having your moment.

the moment when you're not sure
how to be alive,
when strings become nooses
in the stars of your eyes,
thin objects mock your bones
and the instruments of your heart
act like knives thirsting for blood.

pavement shatters underfoot.
the cracks become teeth,
sharp and unfriendly as you pass;
they're grey, great sheaves of skin.
the world is alive, but unfriendly and cold.

so we sink back into what we're used to.
the way settling into sadness
is like settling into bed after a long day.

so they put you on everything they can find.
prozac, where you stayed miserable.
abilify, where you stayed miserable.
seroquel, where you stopped eating
when being treated for having stopped eating.
risperdal, where you became a zombie.
celexa, where you stopped obsessing
until your dose caused heart problems
so you dropped it til you felt permanently
bad.
klonopin, where you got high.
ambien, where you hallucinated.
neurontin, where you got dizzy
and couldn't tell if it was from having stopped eating again
or from the pills that rivaled the size of your thumbs.
effexor, where you cross your fingers and hope
maybe finally something goes right.
personal blah blah
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Saidye Jan 15, 2013  Student General Artist
Oh my god, Melissa. :heart:
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:iconohsostarryeyed:
you are so lovely :hug:
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Saidye Jan 30, 2013  Student General Artist
Thank you, you are though.

:heart:
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tiajones Jul 26, 2012  Hobbyist Writer
the beginning of this is just perfection. <3 <3 <3

i quoted it here: [link]

i hope you don't mind. <3
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:iconohsostarryeyed:
eep! no i don't mind, thank you!
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tiajones Aug 23, 2012  Hobbyist Writer
always welcome. [:
it's beautiful
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Scarlatti Jul 26, 2012  Professional Writer
So sad

I hope the effexor works for you :heart:
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LiebeLoewenzahn Jul 24, 2012  Student Writer
Celexa :)
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:icontheemptychest:
As someone who battles depression, I can honestly say this resonates with me very strongly.
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:iconohsostarryeyed:
i'm sorry :[ thank you, dear
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